Sunday, March 22, 2009

Chiron in 12th House Taurus (note: asteroids are heavy, btw)

The asteroid Chiron is the Wounded Healer, an entity which exists to unlock, teach and heal through suffering. By sign, Chiron infers where we most suffer throughout life, the area where we tend to have the "worst luck."By house, it shows where this suffering tends to manifest. Although it seems dreary, Chiron brings with it's suffering the possibility for profound growth once the patterns which cause so mcuh pain are acknowledged and dealt with.

Chrion in Taurus has a constant pain of neglect, often feeling that what they have is never enough- materially, emotionally, mentally or spiritually. They lack solid value structure, and feel that they are never quite "full." Their hearts seem to need consistent re-filling as they quickly and constantly empty themselves. There is a propensity to deny true happiness as a result, and natives instead opt to collect material things that will never change or leave them, and also tend to hold on to experiences and memories of pleasure long after the point of pleasure has left their lives. They long for love but devalue it, fearing that they may someday lose the ability to sustain themselves emotionally.

Chiron in Taurus is, above all things, a preserver of value. It's easier, and hurts less, to hold onto objects or memories because they cannot change. Their value to the native thusly stays the same, instead of shifting, increasing or decreasing. Taurus concerns itself so heavily with protection and safety that Chiron in Taurus natives will seem to go to great lengths to preserve their wound, deeply terrified of the risks they must take in order to heal themselves.

Additionally, natives with Chiron in Taurus typically have bizarre sexual habits because of the strong influence of Chiron on Venusian energy (Taurus is ruled by Venus). There are deeply complex (sometimes subconscious) issues of sexual dominance/submission, and fantasies of rape or bondage may be present. The Chiron/Venus influence also makes natives particularly receptive to kundalini energy, which can be as damaging as it can be beneficial- depending on how mentally prepared natives are for the changes it brings.

When Taurus Chiron is found in the 12th house, natives are experimenters and are often multi-talented. They are not easily able to ignore what they don't understand, and so are driven to uncover the hidden truths behind apparent reality in order to protect themselves from all angles. They are in constant fear that a door will open to them when they are unprepared, and so feel they must learn as much as they can on every possible subject. They have an almost obsessive interest in the past, and thusly a talent for bringing things from the past into the present to make them once again useful.

12th house Taurus Chiron typically has a very strong awareness of the unrealized potential (wounds) in both situations and people, which only further complicates their disordered value structure. They will invest an almost obscene amount of time and effort into helping others realize their hidden potentials, only to receive little to no appreciation for it in the aftermath. In fact, they may even experience harsh judgments and false accusations from those they guide, mentor, and help. This is one of the most frequently experienced traits of this position, but at the same time natives have an almost unnerving lack of concern for it. There is a very strong awareness here of a greater power (be it a God, karma, fate, or some other manifestation of what is arguably the same energy) which tends to both constantly humble individuals with this placement and also prevent them from demanding the recognition they deserve for aiding in the success of others.

Quite frequently they are known for their intellectual arrogance, and quite probably enjoy taking on the role of dissenter. It is also quite common for them to not realize how they hinder themselves by holding maverick views. Their maverick nature often takes them into areas that are not properly appreciated or recognized by society. This may cause them some disappointment or emotional damage, as they (perhaps oddly) have a very real need to belong to the society in which they find themselves, even as it continues to fail to make sense to them.

Most are moody, and may seem to attract grief magically. They are confronted time and time again by curve-balls, which only adds to their impossible obsession with complete understanding. After a time, isolation tendencies appear as natives look for healing in retreat. There is a high risk for substance abuse for people with this placement, as intoxicating conditions both comfort and make sense to them. At their deepest possible level they may feel they are caught in limbo between the material and the spiritual world, at times not knowing which is truly real.

When Chiron is found in the 12th house, natives are bestowed a strong physic, intuitive gift which sets them apart from most. This gift could include psychic healing abilities, clairvoyance, and/or a talent for spiritually guiding others. Their early expressions of these talents were likely looked down upon or ignored in childhood, causing natives to hide or deny them. For this reason, there is a danger that natives will commit themselves to "gurus" or Christ figures throughout life, as they will admire and envy their lost talents when seen in others, forgetting that the magic still exists inside of them.

Many of these issues will be brought to a head during the natives first Saturn Return, and they will be forced to either work toward healing or give themselves over completely to another's spiritual leadership. There has been discussion between professional and student astrologers that those 12th house Chiron individuals strong enough to come out of their Return intact will be instrumental in the rebuilding of a (some would say inevitably forthcoming) new social renaissance, as their perception of how the world should be is more correct than they have ever been given credit for.